Today was my first day back at school - which means it was the first day Haylie had to be away from me all day at the babysitter's house :( Brian left with her this morning around 5:30 and I cried pretty good :( It's a good thing Brian takes her because I probably couldn't do it - I would end up secretly skipping school everyday or something! Anyway, I picked her up after school and felt much better once I saw her sweet little face :)
School wasn't too bad today - I was suprised how good it felt to be back. Of course, we haven't really got into much yet so it was an easy day - tomorrow will be worse :)
The bad thing about being back at school though is that I'm still "Marked" - I'm forever gonna be "that pregnant girl" in the eyes of my classmates I think. NO ONE (except the ladies in the office) even asked me about my baby today :( Not even a guy whose wife had her baby over the break too. And - I showed a picture of Haylie to a guy that I sat by last term (who actually went to high school with Brian) - and he couldn't have been more disinterested. He acted like he didn't realize that the picture I was showing him was of MY baby - the one that was in my protruding gut just a month ago last time I saw him - I'm sure he noticed that! It's like people think it is so taboo around there to be pregnant/have a kid while in law school. It kinda hurts my feelings because it makes it just that much harder for me to make friends. I have made NONE at this school (which the lady in the office felt the need to point out to me several times - "well it must be so hard for you to be here with no one!" - yes, thank you). Oh well, whatever.
Anyway, this wasn't supposed to be a Rant - but I needed to vent I guess! :)
In other news . . . Haylie has officially grown out of her Newborn sized PJ's - the really cute ones with Elephants having a Cupcake picnic :( My little Piglet is getting big too fast for her mama :(